I gave up

 我覺定放棄他們，離開他們了。

是他們逼我的，也是我自己選擇的。

不管怎樣，不管有多心痛，不管有多無奈，我的決定就是決定了。

我不想再重複的做那些無謂的事情。

我不想再重複那些心情。真累。

Jun 2021

 這個網頁已經丟棄好幾年了！

最近的我很好。因為我有他。❤️

這幾年我們真的一起經歷了好多。住他家；在外面租房間一起住，自己學會洗衣晾衣服，管理我們的花費（雖然還是很難控制自己水龍頭開放式的花錢習慣），照顧自己，被他照顧。❤️

一切的一切發生的就好像一場很長的夢。

現在我們搬回到我媽媽家了，和他一起搬進來的。因為我家裏發生了事情，所以我才回去了。原本以為我可以狠心的放棄一切。我還以為我這輩子都不會再見到他們了⋯⋯

我的二妹患上焦慮症。我上網查了，以為這個病沒有很嚴重。但當看到她病發在我面前，真的很難說是不嚴重的一種精神病。

Do you ever fall in love not with a person, but a place, an environment, a kind of atmosphere that you feels good with. You love not just one person, but everyone that combines together, which their bonding is what you love. You love the things you do every single day and you could do it repeatedly with all your heart and passion. Everything that happens is just like yesterday's. The memories are still so clear in my mind. I wants to go back and I cant. I regret decisions I've made and things I've done. I literally fucked up everything. Now I'm all over dreaming to start another one which it wont happen. 💭

最後的道別

這是在我們過世的國父李光耀先生的遺體經過之前拍下的。這一幕讓我好感動。老天與我們都在哭泣。盡管下著大雨，他來臨之時大家還是放下了手上的雨傘和手機，向他致敬。大聲的呼喚他的名字，我們都衷心的感謝您他為新加坡的付出。李光耀先生，沒有您，就不會有今天的新加坡。😢

最後的道別，李光耀先生請您一路走好！

Thank you my love

My birthday is coming and my family bought me Pandora. I'm blessed~

New colleague.

2015, may this be a great year for everyone.

A colleague just left (quit) at the start of this year. In fact, the company already decided to sack her at the end of this month. She didnt know about it.

It's annoying and frustrating to know that one of her reasons for leaving is that she's not happy about my promotion. -.-

Not only me but ALL colleagues doesn't like her.

She's someone who will push blames to everyone around but not herself. I've never met anyone as lazy as her! And her pretending skill is super good. 👍

Anyway, it's a good thing that she left.

A new colleague came. Malaysian indian girl. She's 25 and she hardworking. She's good at washing thing, detail and clean. She did everything we asked her to do and she doesnt complain. I hope her hardworkingness will stays on and not only because she just started working. :/

Jay is here for a week already. Took bus and train with her yesterday after work. We had a great chat about how she will be travelling to and fro between Singapore and Johor baruh this two weeks. She's got abit of trouble about renting rooms in Singapore, so she'll only have a place to live in Singapore after Feb. Whoahh this is so tiring and she only got four hours of sleep each day! 😱

Not to deny, I do have abit racist mindset when first my manager Mandy told me that she's hiring indian. But it turns out good. :)

Hope this new colleague stays on and also with her current working attitude.

如果我們會再見面，你會說什麽？

昨晚做了個夢，夢見自己和一家人出國了。
在夢裏的那個國家碰見了他。
夢裏的他當時跟我打招呼！
他說他在旅行會待上一個星期...
夢裏的我忍不住還問他要不要一起！
他避開了話題，夢裏的我好失望。
他塞了張字條給我...
夢裏的我在酒店裏收拾出門要帶的東西；
我打開了他塞給我的字條，
裏面寫了好多我不記得了的字（英文的）
還有一個字我記得很清楚： solly!
他是這麽寫的。
後來我就醒來了。
多麽痛心的夢！心的傷真的不能復原了。
醒來後我無奈的告訴自己，
哪怕只是個道歉字條，我什麽傷都值得。