Reading back some old posts and realise I was so positive back then. I almost posted about every single things happened. Everything about my family, my friends and my work. I was being so positive working earning money. I went out spending my time with friends. I enjoyed every outing and that joy truely comes from my heart. But what happened now? Honestly, every single check-ins were for you to see. I wish you would care. Those check-ins and photos from Instagram I posted, I wanted you to know that I actually continues to enjoy life without you. That was a lie to you, and also myself. I stopped posting outings to my blog, because I knew you dont read blogs. Life is nothing without you. I could do nothing, not a single thing to make you come back to me. I've changed. I'm not me anymore.